Ziboe

EYO hello! its been a while, I have recently began reviving both DA and FA, so here is some important updates! I don't think anyone ever reads my shitty journals, but here we go. Dont say I didn't mention any of this in the future 😂

COMMISSIONS

I have got a notorious amount of DMs about people inquiring my commissions (90% of them being custom designs) and as my profile states >>>my commissions are now closed!<<<

Christmas is coming and work is going to be unpredictable. I work at a beauty salon 8 hours straight (to help my family, it belongs to them) and because of holidays we are going to have busy days at random days due to the increase amount of people celebrating and wanting to be "beautified".

I have felt super inspired with art and I think I wanna rework on the YCHs listed under this point. The reason why I have never posted public commissions it is because I dont need commissions as a source of income, all my money comes from my designs and YCHs. I would like to formally have a public sheet if I am ever in true need to open them for public, but every time I tell myself to do so, other things happen and I push it on the background and time passes and then I am stuck re thinking if my prices are okay and then it gets stuck in a never-ending spiral.

YCHs

Here are two previews of future YCHs I will be working to deliver soon:

• Numerical chibi ychs: https://sta.sh/011j1mh1si62 Must rework on it, redraw from zero. This YCH is SUPER old, I think I started it last year or a year and a half, but I never opened it, least not to public or I dropped it, can't remember.

• Vent ychs: https://sta.sh/0tljuthd3r4 This one is recent, from 2 months ago, although I must admit, seeing it now again makes me want to redraw from zero. Gosh I hate being such a perfectionist...

THE FUTURE

Again sorry, I have also been extra busy, despite the auction went well, the payment plan is slow, so I have only received like 150 dollars which money has been consumed already and 100 dollars went to my friend to help her, so been busy making ychs in a closed species group.

>Possible spam of character refs soon, despite all my ocs being on toyhouse, almost only 10% of my followers check toyhouse which is very sad (I don't blame them tho). Posting my ref so my characters are known again (I hope).

>Possible NSFW in the future?? not that I want to, I HATE NSFW, but according to my therapist I have sex phobia. Due to my childhood, my father and people around me that always forced sex related topics on me as a child, I grew a high dislike for it. She told me that I needed to learn to overcome that phobia, either by liking it or finding it boring so that it wouldn't trigger me any further. I might slowly try it, not from a perverted point of view, but from a medical way. Sex makes me feel awful, like I don't matter, myself as a person/artist will never value the same compared to pornography because people would always only see tits over my emotions. This is how everyone had always made me feel, I am just a tool for people's desire, my ex friends, my father, my uncle, my customers.

I can't seem to believe I could find a way to like it, thinking of drawing sex bits that arent badly drawn elementary school dicks for comedy pisses me off cause I know people will (regardless of the back story) sexualize and fap to that art (I can't blame them, it's why they mostly click anyways), so this gonna be the hardest challenge I have ever had. STILL I want to learn how to cure this trauma, because living hateful over something considered natural or normal (in terms of adult life) is a curse.

SLOW RESPONSES

>ALWAYS remember that if I ever owed you something in the past and I couldn't ever complete due to me disappearing from here or FA let me know! I know I say it always, but little people get to read my journals, so I am forced to always mention this so that it can reach first timers.

>If I never delivered a reply over something be it you asking about a commission inquiring, a simple answer to a small question, a conversation I never finished, etc. PLEASE reach up to me! Dont be shy, I don't want to leave things undone anymore.

>Last note if I do not straight away reply it means I am extremely busy, as explained before with my family work, I often arrive home to die in my bed. I can be very active a couple of days and then disappear for a week or two, and then repeat the same habit. I have tried a ton to force myself activity, but so far a full year into it and it hasn't changed, my life is just very unpredictable. Know so I am not dead if I don't straight away answer, just don't have the energy left after work to go into social medias. Please forgive me for this, I just don't have the energy I used to.